heart broken

" u only have three great loves in your life"

and i've already had two.... lost them both found them again and yet can only keep one...
the most important.... yes! [i hope so] but the second will always have a place in my heart.. .for deep personal life-long reasons. most ppl kno my first love.... lets call him mr. smith lol he gets on my nerves makes me angry comes with alot of uh lets just say its mr. smith + ______ but yea so 3 and some years making it thru some how.... november 4, 2005.....long time anyway yea we dealing with our issues.... hopefully it will work.. i do love that man of mine <3

but this post is about my second <3 .... he is a pain in my ass.. he eats all my candy. likes being a smart ass. watches anime [loser!] JUST RECENTLY agreed to pass over my favorite button down of his [he doesnt even wear it!] lets just say we've made it through alot of things. first things first.....PRIVACY!!!!!!! Mr. 2 will remain nameless [lol ha i should add 7 to that] anyway we been Through Fires bad things bad bad things good things great things....we have great memories [including breakin the tv] lol ima spare the details they not gonna mean as much to u lol [good times] hopefully there will many more to come...friend memories that is... point of the blog!!!! because my partner in crime is "in a relationship" <3 i knew before the public did but it still hurt a little...it stung.... we still close [mending our friendship] not as close as before :/ but working on it..... there are moments when i slip and think about things i shouldnt.. memories we should have had and didnt....possibilities...ideas ---- but thats all they are.... ideas... i love this man..i never told him... wasnt necessary...definitely wouldnt help now lol.. but i did... i do... <3

"wat are we gonna do tonight brain?"
"the same thing we do every night pinky: try to take over the world"

awwww :(


maybe i only have 2 not 3... maybe the person that made that quote was wrong... 2 great loves.. maybe the third is meant to be YOURSELF... because those 2 definitely taught me things about myself... so i thank u