busy busy busy

soo... fast catch up.....

1. Im hungry probably gonna get chinese tonight after i get off work and after i leave the library.

Hong Kong is mighty tasty probably gonna get the same things i do all the time.

2. My idea for the party tomorrow. -> I wanna be like one of the background dancers in the "Like a Boy" video. cool cool. Did i mention it was a Phi Beta Sigma Party.. lol we kool like PBS kids lol.

3. And saturday is the MLK Day on my campus. Im in charge of it. lol fun times at 8 am. :)

SNOW DAY!!!!!

Its a snowy day but alas thanks to rutgers university it is not a snow day. BASTARDSS! um in my room awake its hella early but i had to check if we had school cuz i got alot of stuff to do mad early today. shit right now i should be getting ready and packin a bag lots of moving around to do before my 9:50 class at FH-A1. river dorms holla :) i almost gave up last night n texted him. but judy aint answer me so i fell asleep. uhhhh

Valentines Day is coming up. uh yea... so pretty much enough said. naturall we all kno im going thru a rough period right now so i doubt anything will be happenin on the lovely cold saturday in Febuary. btw i pretty much kno nothings gonna happen cuz he and his group are throwin a party so yeaa... we not gonna make up in the comin weeks and im not going there for the weekend. [i changed my spanish class now i have a friday class but no thursday classes lol w/e] so yea anyway.... its taken me a little over a week to be over it and in franii time thats hella long its cool i guess. maybe i'll stay home and eat chinese do Hong Kong deliver on valentines day...eat some candy drink some soda lay in bed and take the day off from homework.... thats cool i guess. hmmm not really oh well wat can i do? nothin. it will just be another day lik it always has been.

btw its hella cold out and STILL snowin so this whole the campus is up and runnin bullshit is for the birds yo. hella dumb. i gtg. gotta get ready to do some fast moving around before class.

the best friends are friends w/ benefits

so... i went to get my refund check and they said come back at 3.... i had other stuff to do and the bank closes at 3 so i gotta get it at 8:30am tomorrow when they open go deposit it buy my books go to my class. go home read.eat. go to class. work somewhere in that day i think. call my mom so i can tell her how much i spent.[im soo soo tired and i got work at 9 its 5:13 right now and i got reading to do...so oh well]

my title is about a picture i have that my cousin kenny admired lol. it hangs up in my room. its a great picture. lol stick figures lol. my eyes are burning. but yea "the best friends are friends w/ benefits" INTERESTING concept.

So i been by myself alot lately cuz of my 14 hr days.. well not alone per se cuz i see ppl all the time and i stop and talk and spend time texting [number of texts] texts a day and a month.. how many mom? anyways.... but yea just chillin and i freaked out yesterday cuz parkside put on his status [ _____ _______ is missing somebody ;) ] and for a second i thought it was me and then my friends brought me back down to earth and i realized it wasnt. and i was talkin to gumby :0 [i just made that name up for him yay] and he was askin about it and blah blah... no names of course i didnt say who. but it was blank this morning...and yea still no answer or anything so im slowly gettin over it. this is why i dont lik ppl lol cuz it happens so few few few times and when it does i try and then it fails so yea. i really love that picture of Mr. President and the First Lady :)... the Obamas. i need a power nap cuz im fading horribly fast and i still got hrs left in my schedule uhhh.....

my song of the day:

Jazmine Sullivan: In love wit another man [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IIF9IAQSnU]

i put a gun up to his head/ pulled the trigger now hes dead

Long post to follow: many things to cover.

1. Work: is starting to annoy me because someone that we work with is bi-polar. someone that we work wit is lazy. and then everyone else is normal lol. [except some locas that work on work study wit me] and side note: i wont get paid til the 13th damn this wrk study system of not paying for the weeks just worked ughh... watever i need the money.

2. Money: im very poor. end of story. period. point blank. and im bout to get my refund check and spend a ****load of money on my books for class. so that i can go back to being poor in a matter of a hr.

3. Sleep: ehhh.... yea sleep is not an option im tryin to get in at least 6 cuz my days are so long but we'll see

4. Eating: ehhh.. yea about that im tryin to at least eat one meal a day but sometimes that gets overlooked too

5. Friends: ha u see me when u see me.... cuz its the batcave for me.... u lucky if i text u :) seeing me is another issue all together

6. MySecretLoves: i really dont wanna be bothered. my days are long enough as is.. i just need space. i found being home during winter break wit my mom was relaxing. i needed that. i just need space. i dont want us to break up cuz i still love u but i think i just need to breathe.

7. I miss my mom. the end.

8. Books: oh lawdyy lawdyy lawdyy im bout to spend a boat load of money on books lol sorry i had to say that again

9. Classes:

• Spanish: im trying to switch because i just cant take the uno dos tres... anymore... hopefully i get the next one
• Victorian Lit: hes funny lots of reading tho.. Tess is right now... that class is packed.

...... gotta leave work...to be continued.

[so i left that was 12pm its now 5pm]

• i was talkin about Vic Lit-- so yea hes funny i like him. its alot of readin. speaking of which. i gotta read while im at work.
• Lit Study: its just more reading. the professor for lecture is really annoyin. my TA for section is ok i guess.
• BLACK LIT: now listen closely cuz this class is gonna piss me off weekly. the reading [i dont mind] the books [theres alot]-- i dont even mind but my professor ALOO is ridick. if he keeps sayin "do u understand what i mean", "does that answer ur question" -- ima kill myself. u gotta strain to hear what hes tryin to say thru his accent. and that class! those ppl! i swear that class is just for white ppl to be able to talk about blacks. "white bob and black bob" wtf that class made me so mad on monday. i wanted to come home and write a niceeee long blog but i had hw and other stuff to do and i was hella tired. [14 hr days here ppl] :/
• macro: yea.... its just that nothin exciting nothin exciting at all

u got me speechless.....yessss yesssss yesssss

so obviously this is me -> im just chillin. its sunday nothin exciting today. just reading n being inside. i got a work meeting later on livi but til then i will be inside my apartment being my normal self. playin music annoying Peju and eating lol.





My PLAYLIST. -- for now that is lol

• Beyonce: Speechless
• Jill Scott: He Loves Me
• Ne-Yo: Stop This World
• Ne-Yo: Back to What You Know
• Ne-Yo: Single
• Ne-Yo: Mad
• Ne-Yo: Parts of the List
• Ne-Yo: Fade into the Background
• Sade: King of Sorrow

Right now im reading Tess of the D'Ubervilles for my Victorian Lit class and even tho i kno its suppose to be a good story [i spark notes it] lol its so hard to read maybe its just early chapter jitters. i have 4 classes tomorrow and probably work ugh tomorrow gonna be a long day. Spanish 8:10 Lit study 9:50 Vic Lit 2:50 Black Lit 7:40..... oh and its suppose to be in the 30s tomorrow CHILLY CHILLY much. I really wanted to go home today. thats how much i hated yesterday i wanted to go see my mom.

Ne-Yo: "This is impossible. We'll never work cuz u dont want it. go back to wat u kno. i'd rather u happy than miserable wit me." [Back to what you Know]

Anyway so yea PBS are starting THE BLUPRINT their Sigma week and church is today at LSH on livi at 5 but its church not mass--As we all know im Catholic-- so ehhh Todd said he doesnt think God will mind lol. the week ends wit 80s vs. 90s on friday--still have NO OUTFIT!!! idk if im even going i think i would get massacred if i didnt tho ehhh ok i gotta think of something. im thinkin 90s not 80s. me and Peju just had a convo about it hmmm. anyway so yea.......

in regards to that picture -> naturally we all kno that is not my mouth lol but i liked the picture so deal wit it. its the message that i liked. not the stupidity of writing on your lips in ink lol. lets do a rundown.

• Mr. 2: i saw him yesterday :) hes a pain in my ass but i still lub him dearly. eating all my damn candy and drinkin my apple juice.
• Mr. Smith: has NOT been answerin my messages so yea all that can go to hell. idk wat im suppose to do wit him/us. any ideas
• Mr. Fly: amuses me but ehhh no... lol
• Mr. dress to impress: havent seen him since friday..interesting character
• Parkside: does NOT exist.... [my nigerian: u just gotta be patient and do da lonely nites.. and one day it ll change]
• Lovesong: i havent heard from him in a while..... idk idk [smh]
• Prada: is back being on his asshole shit.. [that was a mistake]
• Young boul: is on his secret secret shizz :(

theres more but who cares... they all end up in the bin anyway....

abril and judy will love me enough : ) maybe they love me more then i love myself mmmMMmm :*

side note: i still miss my mom...

whelp...its saturday

• still sick--kinda gettin better
• "otherwise shoot this motherfucker" WANTED-- the movie is on tv
• ate soup
• homework
• stayin in i guess
• coll's here :)
• uh still no responses... im starting not to mind to much
• i want chinese
• no parkside no prada no mr smith no mr fly no mr 2....noone
• sleep i guess
• more homework tomorrow n work meeting
• i look cute in my sweats :)

and so the fight begins...

the fight to breathe that is..... because i become more congested as the minutes go on lol well im back at work again for the trillionth time today. and im still bloody sick and not feeling well. trying to drink water and orange juice. ppl got plans and im not doing nothin but sleep and medicine and a hot shower oh well. im wit my judy and angie and FBP.

so we was lookin at whatspoppin.net for the pictures of last night and SCANDALOUS!!!!!! oh no no no ppl look a whorish mess, poor girls :/ while i was on the computer i showed angie parkside :) hes a cutie but evidently hes an idiot. :/ so still alone... very very very single except mr dress to impress thats been flirting and the usuals

but i dont want them... i want parkside :( oh well

doesnt anyone go to work on fridays!!!!????

ok so first off yes im alive n no im NOT happy.

yesterday was juicy campus and altho i love my Iotas it was not the best time of my life. it might of had something to do with the fact that i was already previously mad, SICK!, oh did i mention mad, wait did i mention sick. ugh. so i was at work and the bank and class , early day as usual. i went to go see the bruhs..my brothers.. i missed them dearly. and then i went and got my advanced tix way way way too many haters in that long line. and u know i aint go to the back. thats why its good to know ppl. then i saw mr. fly finally cuz he been fading me and some of the MZ gang :) did i mention i was wit my abril this whole time :) umm... so yea then i went home washed some clothes took some nasty medicine and tried to sleep. my nose hurts :( i woke up later then expected got ready. i wore..... jeans, boots, a tank, and my cardigan.. thats right i said it... cuz i dont care. I DO WAT I WANT. got there... thoughts...

• ehhh who are these people
• where the hell is judy!?!
• why does this look lik its boring
• why the hell u lookin at me i dont know u
• wtf! why the lights on????
• this is going to be bad
• i fell so sick, i feel so sick, i feel so sick.....

so yea the party lasted a while.. obviously.. i wanted to go home lik 5 minutes after i got there. saw my friends.. saw some haters.. saw sex on the floor [ ha to josh's comment lol] .... saw ppl wit lik next to nothin on... bikini top in the winter?????? [ i must have looked like a nun]....my mom always says u dont have to wear stuff lik that to get attention.. well mom apparently ya do lol... i played out a few ppl [moses: u are the man fran how u dap him up and play him out lik that in front of all his boys me: oh im sorry was that wrong lol] more non dancin.... did i mention some cuties...but i was sick and didnt care so... more friends more NON dancin... can i just say its very hard watchin someone u use to be wit dance wit some new chick thats not even cute and gots lik 50 pounds on u but she da same height ugh....[wth Lovesong wth] judy: where u at fran? where u at?... lol anyways so strollin... bad dancin.. the music was not that good....lol ha to dancin wit dudie [the medicine went to my head for a moment] CMD all day....Prada looked nice.. Jorge is always a cutie but he no speak to me :(.... i saw bobby v... jojo [hes a cutie]....mr. 2 [hmmm :)]

anyways so it wen on lik that for a while.. then i left came home took a shower n went to sleep. woke up. got ready for work which brings me to the office desk im typing at right now. and to my title.. DOESNT ANYONE GO TO WORK ON FRIDAYS!!???!!!

so im livid at ... [callin again and no one is pickin up!!!!] RUTGERS ACCOUNTING... ughhhh humpffff!!!!! so lik i said the other day i went to get my refund check and she said i was "part-time" so they put a hold on my sub and unsub loans which meant no refund but a balance... stupid ppl u act lik its not add and drop period!!! ugh ok so i added my new class and the hold didnt come off lik itr was suppose to on my term bill so i been callin and callin and no one wants to pick up the phone lik ppl dont have to answer phones on friday or go to work.i swear i hate rutgers. i just wanna go home i miss my mom and i dont feel well at all. and parkside hasnt text/called nothin... and im over mr smith... i just wanna go home.... i miss my abuela

oh did i mention my phone been acting dumb as hell everything and everyone is pissing me off yo im not in the mood for this thank god no friday classes and no work or classes during the weekend if it was so cold and i was sick i would go home. ugh wait i have a stupid meeting today at 5 pertaining to more stupid ppl and then me and judy I WANT MY MOMMY!!!!

now i brace myself for a fight...

listening to my current favorite song: STOP THIS WORLD

and i see heaven when he looks at meee.....

so classes today...work... i went to get my refund check and they were beingstupid wit my loans cuz i was adding and droppin classes ugh.. april said RU SCREW... it needs to get fixed i need my books oh lordy.. hey! we have a bi-racial president :) [mixed babies r the best]... ehhh... lets list

• im cold
• not really excited to be back at rutgers
• dont wanna go to any parties but ppl want me to go
• i really miss my mom -- ppl here are makin me lonely
• i should call my grandma
• sad
• and so it ends.....
• i miss coll she would be able to understand...
• i wanna cry :/
• i didnt wanna be alone anymore...
• stop this world from spinning
• (tear)....
• i wanna escape

have u ever tried to find the words butthey dont come out right? have u ever? haaave u ever? "brandy"

im at work still...... i get off at 7 pm its not 6:51... but while i was here i been thinkin and today my songs of choice are...

Brandy: Have u ever (words i keep repeating)

• Have you ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad You can't sleep at night? Have you ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right? Have you ever?

NE-YO: Stop this World (the words i keep repeating)

• OkayI woke upIn heaven todayShe kissed meI floated away, awayNever feltAnything so great/Cause I can't feelThe groundSomeone let me downI never felt so highAs I do nowIt's too goodTo be trueI don't deserve you/And I seeHeavenWhen she looks at meIn her smileIs the mostAmazing dreamAnd in her eyesI fall asleepAnd I hopeHope that she can seeThrough the smokeOf my imperfectionsInto my soulAnd my heartWhere she has control(She has control)

ehhh.... thats it. i sang green light for a couple seconds but mostly just ne-yo's song.... thats how im feeling right now.

8:10 wtf!!!

so class started today and naturally beingin the retarded one i am i scheduled an 8:10 class.. retard!!!! so i been thinkin about wat transpired this weekend and i feel at fault for some of it. its my fault i dont kno how to be a regular normal girl. i dont kno how to handle girlish/relationshipish/friendshipish/crushish/ like-liking things... judy made me come in to work even tho i dont have to work til 3 so ima end up watchin OBAMA on cnn at work. im sad. i wish things were different.. i want him to text me.... heres to hoping :/

boy im livid!!!!!!

so i went to go see parkside.... yea man ;) .... so the rundown

• cold, freezing snowy bus ride
• excitement, smiles, antsy, nervous, thoughts
• train from nb to rahway -- random dude got off too and was lik u following me shorty?
• longggg hour wait for next train
• train from rahway to ________ (non of ur business) it was an hour....
• he was 20 minutes late getting me
• "where u at?" -- "the train station" -- "no duh smart ass" lol
• but DAMN HES FINE and a smart ass and i love that
• "dont u love the sound of fresh snow under ur feet" (parkside)
• hes such a cutie....
• unloaded my stuff, chilled for 2.5 seconds, started cookin
• "are any of these dishes clean" "if the cups turned down its clean these are up they dirty"
• .... more cute things that are smart ass remarks between us -- i love it
• shower, tv, sleep, and other things that are non of ur business...i love his smirk
• bad sleep, early mornin
• shower, bed, tv -- yes during the day--
• and then it went down hill
• hence the title...
• im so confused. i dunno wat u want. i want u and im tryin to not be the cold blooded one i use to be but y wen there isnt a common ground. just tell me wat u want. :/
• trains back home.....
• im home...work meeting..seeing close friends... made me feel a lil better.
• tired...missin him..still mad/confused...class very bloody early
• "gimme a kiss" :) .... (i just bit my lip, my smirk, remembering)
• song of the day : ne-yo "stop this world from spinning" -- year of the gentleman

oh lord wat did i get myself into--- putting my guard down n liking parkside. lik i told april i kno wat side i belong on and the one i want wit parkside isnt it. :/

the roosters havent even started makin noise

so its the crack of dawn lik literally its lik 5 somethin in the mornin and i cant sleep. i was fine sleepin lik a baby til i had to pee. then it woke me up. then it was cold. then i started thinkn about all the stuff i gotta do when i get back to school. then i started thinkin about that damn leaky window then i was thinkin about how i gotta get maintenance to get off they ass and fix it then i was hoping they aint steal or break anything Wen they were there last week. then i was thinkin my tv was REALLY broke or stolen. then i was thinkin i wanna move out. or move into colleens old room wit jess. then i text jess to tell her i was moving in her rom but because its the crack of dawn she aint answer. then i was tryin to do the lottery number thing on my phone cuz i packed my laptop but its too long. now im awake STILL not asleep thinkin about things. cuz i gotta go back to real life now that winter break is over. not one single good thought since i been awake. im tired. im moving today. and then moving again. then cleanin again. highlight: football game at 3. highlight: seeing jess and possibly my amber (mi amor). then i have to leave the football game/ warm apt/ my friends to enter the brisk slightly freezing/easy to catch pnuemonia weather to go catch a train. highlight: Parkside mmMMmm.

my day started early and bad hopefully it gets better not worse. heres to hoping.

no more 68 degrees freezing house

im laying in bed its the end of the road u guys. the end. im packed. clothes are hanging up to dry. the house is clean so is my room. ive said good bye to my grandparents. and my friends. its over. its fuckin cold as shit i had to wash all my sweatpants!?! adios mio! que frio! Contesta me pregunta. will manana be a good day? only heaven knows. up at 7 to finish up my finale. kinda sad. kinda not. at least there are my friends. and i'll be seeing Parkside manana. did i mention it was cold! oh btw my eyebrows look freakin great i love comin home where she can fix them and they look perfect. awwww now thats love. i had chinese but april made sushi so now im craving sushi but Parkside wants me to bring food to cook at his place.

side note: wtf is mr smith. no text. no calls. no answers. w.t.h.a.i.s.t.d. ( wat the Hell am i suppose to do) lol-- got that from o-dizzy lmao that name is gansta and im from cmd so u kno its hood lol

the most toxic high

whelp im high off bleach right now. gotta take a break because i mixed too many chemicals to clean the house and its makin me dizzy lol. who needs to drink or smoke or sniff just eff'n clean ur house (well not half ass) and u will be good to go. ugh i think im gonna be sick.

And so it ends...

whelp today is my last day of winter break :( that kinda sucks (hmm i gotta pee) sorry for the side note its early i just woke up but mom was in the bathroom wrapping her hair. h/o on

(franii gets outta bed. goes to bano. gets back in bed)

ok im back lol alrighty now im writing even tho its early because dayum i got the wind knocked outta me last night by Parkside whoa that body is sexy. period end of story thats it. anyway yea Parkside/ East Camden NEEDS to work. they need to get together and start communicating. good laughs last night.

East Camden: tomorrow needs to be sunday
Parkside: Noo tomorrow is saturday lol
East Camden: shit we need to skip some days here
Parkside: only if

anyway yea... sunday thank god u are tomorrow cuz mmMMmm. well i gotta go clean the house and start moving and finishing all my crap and talk someone into takin me to get my eyebrows done on westfield ave.

P.S. i dont lik when u talkin to ppl on the phones and they fall asleep. i mean i do it sometimes but ugh it annoys me til i fall asleep that is. lol

beauty is in the eye of the beholder

so Im on my phone again! lol hey bitches! anyways its friday night u know Im home cuz Im boring lik that but Im not especially bored. stillll no pictures of my hair cut i kno... sue me!

the title goes out to a special man in my life.... a cellular phone. lol its owner is a male. one of my close friends. graduated. nigerian. yoruba. funny. ha mi abuela calls him kenya she talked to him in spanish over the phone .. he said: ur grandma goes in! that nigga is so food i swear! lol gives u a clue anyway yadda yadda he said it cuz i needed him to explain parkside's answer to me.

Story: i did somethin.... Parkside said....... i said....... he said...... i said ...... he said thats sexy 2 me. and i was confused. hence my nigerian buddy came to my rescue. then the title of my blog was born after a few more back and forths. ( i need to get my eyebrows done tomorrow) sorry for the side note.

anyway yea Im trippin off Parkside. he got me feeling high right now. well we will see how it goes. everyone and they fuckin mom in my family expects me to have a boyfriend already. i say no and they lik mentirosa we kno u do.. somewhere.... wat he look lik lol freakin puerto ricans try to marry u off so early. ugh. (man that boy can kiss) damn sorry for that side note. lmao

so its friday night like i sad tomorrow is saturday my last day home. i got chill wit familia do laundry finish packing get my eyebrows done get money from family members cuz Im poor as Hell til my next check and refund check uh... clean my house clean my room take all my bags downstairs. did i mention eat. i gotta eat something inbetween there. Im tired. its gonna be hard getting back into the college night/sleep hours. as long as i have someone sayin goodnight i dont mind. lol hehe :) alas he will be 30 minutes away at his collegio... thats right bitches he dont go to skool wit us i learned my lesson wit mr. 2 and prada. lol never again! Hell fuckin no. BTW i really want Parkside/East Camden to work out i think it could work.

side note: Lovesong pisses me off sometimes. ughh dont say mmm if u have nothin to say or no reason. sketchy and bi polar my ass but... Lovesong will get his time in the spotlight just not today. Today Im still in camden and damn happy to be too.

Cascade and the football player

hey yall :) well Im being lazy again havent gone on the computer in a while dont really want to either so Im writing from my phone again to catch up. well its now thursday night in a few hours it will be ehhhh friday ( i wish tomorrow was sunday -- Parkside) lol cant skip days just to see me boo! anyway its gonna be friday i move in sunday mornin. yay!!!! ( uh kinda....)

um so i got my hair cut today its purtty i'l upload pictures when i finally get on the real computer. then i went to IHOP wit my girl and her boyfriend (the football player GO VSU!!!!) lol i like him hes cool smart funny cant skate worth a damn ( fell lik a trillion times) lol OH YEA! I WENT SKATING! LIKE IN ATL (HENCE -- CASCADE). umm so yea hes good he passes the tests. as long as shes happy. spring break in virginia! hehe

still shoppin. bought new shirts and more new underwears. i swear i bought lik 20 some new pairs even tho i got lik 30 and i dont even wear all of them ( btw victoria secret has these cupcake boyshorts i wanted them cuz i got the lollipop ones already BUT i was d e n i e d by the football player pulling me away (for my own good they said) lmao well til next time.

from a destination

so im far far away. not really im lik a foot from my computer but im laying in bed an dont feel lik getting up. im paralyzed from straining something in my back last night. hence the laziness. i been saying hence alot today.

anyway nothin new same ol same ol. lost a friend. got in a tiff wit his girlfriend. ive known him longer. been talkin to parkside alot. im glad but skeptical as always. been talkin to mr. 2 also. glad we workin on our friendship. called mr smith he hasnt been answering so wth. dont care. remember if i call and u dont answer only so many times ima call before i stop.

i leave on sunday its tuesday about to be wednesday now. my hair is thursday gotta see my grandparents a few more times. and my few camdenites. "thats cuz ur a west philly/ compton girl" (mom on j.lo's dress) lol found an idea for the 80s vs 90s party. i love my music videos lol ugh im hungry. my back is killing me still it needs to get better before thursday when i gotta sit in that chair.

i miss my friends. i miss regular ppl. no girls. no drama. i hate bitches. ppl annoy me. i love the few the proud the brave. my friends

randoms...

• i spent an arm and a leg at target today for school stuff
• my hair appt is on thursday yay!!!!
• my grandparents are so fuckkin funny
• i DEFINITELY almost punched my aunt in her face today
• someone is asking me to remember our sexual encounters from lik a zillion yrs ago
• btw i dont wanna do that ^ ugh...
• i cut my middle finger open today cleanin the oven
• im avoiding a group of ppl
• school move in on sunday
• i wanted to get my nails done but i cant. why u ask? cuz of the cut ^
• i wanna go shoppin
• i miss cuddling and kissing
• i miss my personal radio at night time. ;)
• i want those damn nikebook sneakers
• havent talked to mr smith but have been talkin to the beach and im really starting to lik it..oh did i mention im visiting the beach this weekend..hopefully its warm ;)

forgot!

very tiny but there are a couple
kinda good looks in there. we'll see i dunno.

And TLC of course they
had good looks to steal but......


these dudes is mad
hood not even stylin.

this crew is TOO HARD!!!
lol but i dont have any off this stuff.

THE 80S VS. 90S PARTY

-- i still have nothin to wear. didnt really think about it. dont know wat im suppose to wear. oh goodness i need help! APRIL!!!!! RICK!!!! maybe some pictures will help. i dunno which one to pick. oh welll.

are u READY for some fooootttballlll

EAGLES VS. GIANTS ---- obviously its football sunday. and as many know i love me some football [franii is NOT a girly girl] never! god help me no! i dont wear makeup dont like high heels ur lucky i put on chapstick, put my contacts in and do my hair. lol but we all no im not a regular girl. anyways off topic.

I just saw the commercial for the new "Angry Whopper" from the BK Lounge. looks yummy :) inbetween the commercials for the football game on our HDTV.

So we sittin in our living room watching the game the score is now 7 to 3. EAGLES. hehe. moms pot roast is in the oven. i'll probably go to grandmas after the game. i havent been in a while. talked to mr. 2 [hes an id-jit but i do lub him] im so glad our friendship is gettin back on track. sometimes i think he really did care...he says stuff that [maybe possibly...] but no.

DONT U JUST LOVE PINKY & THE BRAIN!!!! i did > hehe

So yea.... um nothin else planned one week left til school. i still got stuff to do before i move back into school. a list to follow. i will definitely miss my house. my corner store. my mom. my grandparents. being close to sito and mike. my jasmine has moved to watertown, ny onto an army base soooo... :( anyway my list....

• i must spend time wit my grandparents
• go see my sister
• annoy my mom
• get my hair cut
• shop.
• go to target
• finish packin
• eat pandas chinese on westfield ave in pennsauken
• clean the house again
• bake cookies
• side note -- i baked a coffee cake today :) it is tasty
• make sure i get sofrito from granma so i can cook arroz at school

thats it for now :)

how can the mail lady be lost???

nothing exciting a list....

• mail didnt get here til 440 dumbass
• its freezing out!!!!
• stayed home but i wanted to shop
• didnt go to grandmas wen i was suppose to
• ate spanish food for dinner...pernil tostones and something i love but cant spell
• i need to take these contacts out before i sleep
• 8 days left
• maybe shoppin tomorrow
• haircut next week :)
• i want my new piercings already
• i need new roommates for next yr...shit this semester too lol
• im tired dunno why
• i miss brain n his slow self
• i wanna see parkside this weekend..spend some time
• havent talked to the mister... wat the hell are we doing huh????? let me kno please
• FBP3 is intriguing
• im really getting sleepy
• i have something in my mouth.... oh my tongue ring lol
• wat to do this weekend hmmmmm

oh no!!!!

blogger is acting up!!! deleting messages. the hearts are freakin out. its not posting right.
"caution caution had ALOT more wit it so if u aint read it last night ur left out!!!!! ugh not happy

caution caution ur going above the speed limit

i have the best tiimes wit my britt britt. baba babo babobo jide lol. [insider <3]

SIDE NOTES:

• i miss not payin taxes on stuff at school
• u need a gps to find ur way around king of prussia mall
• i got a random smell of sushi in five guys lol
• IM GOIN SHOPPIN SOON!!
• most of my packin for next week is done
• im actually gonna miss my mom
• i want an omega man to be my boyfriend [ not that ^ omega man tho]
• one of my friends said this dude was followin me today because of my "jugs"
• yay my hair is gettin cut next week
• smokin isnt cool
• i wear sweatpants to bed get use to it -- when did that become wack?
• more ppl need to be informed about the "geedy walk" lol
• Mr 2 said my depiction of him in "heart broken" was not accurate so i should add -- Mr 2 THINKS [lmao] "anime is unique that hes wonderful ___ _____ and smells delightful and he dresses oh so trendy" hes an idiot lol <3>"i drank that cold water too fast it gave me brain freeze then froze my lungs" lol
• 10 days left til school

u shoulda known not to pack so much

so im home alone [as usual] doing household things and i decide hey might as well pack. so i put in a large load of clothes to wash. washed the dishes. took a shower. straightened my room. turned the heat from 60 to 68 and now im in my room listening to my favorites on youtube and packing all the excessive clothing that i packed thinking i might go places to wear it all lol [that was dumb] oh well...gotta find a way to the bank today and deposit my check. shoppin!!!! and my hair appt next week yay!!!! [castle of beauty salon in merchantville: plug] i love those men of mine <3 yay my hair will be fixed lol

anyway back to packing..... wish me luck ;) hopefully it all fits like before lol

u are such a fat ass

sooo.... i was home all day then mom came home. watched the PPA show on A&E. mom made a few jokes. we laughed. then i left wit my homie britt to Shoprite [her employer] to buy stuff for school wen she leaves. i would just lik to say i rounded correctly n won on the guessing of how much it would cost. then we leavin and homeboy that gets the carts [an old white man] is smokin a mild lik its cool ---- in the RAIN!!!!! then we went to CHICK FIL A [yay!!!!!!] to get chicken nuggets

me: i just like the nuggets i dont like waffle fries
(britt turns around leaves and comes back)
britt: i thought u said u didnt lik waffle fries why u eating them
me: they tasty lol

so then we left there and ended up at TACO BELL [yay!!!!!] tacos yo quiero taco bell lol. but when we exited the car britt locked her keys in so she called her ex to get her to take us to cmd to get her spare to come back to cherry hill to get her car lol. the whole while im crying bout my poor nuggets in the car sooo we order tacos. eat. he comes. then there was camden and then we came back got the car ate the nuggets traveled down camdens unpaved whole infested streets to my house where i now reside in my bed tired and well fed...... goodnite :)

coldest winter

lets just say its an UGLY ugly day outside... not good!!!!!

last night was fun i ate and then stayed up late talkin to my old friend sito [ace klub - nupe nupe] <3 lots of good laughs.

so now im up and i called my job [Ali and Kevin] all the way in nb [RUTGERS!!!!!] to complain about not gettin my check yet and then low and behold when i go downstairs to get the mail... [my check] I NEED wachovia as fast as speed racer right now...girl gotta pay bills..... AND GO SHOPPIN!!!! did i mention it was ugly out hmm so bank tomorrow... it clears friday shoppin this weekend?? a girl needs new clothes and shoes for a new semester.

speaking of the new semester rutgers is in 11 days.... not really excited i mean i miss my friends...not my roommates..not the drama..not the drunk loud ppl... or my leaking room...speaking of which gotta call them and make sure its not a 4 ft deep pool by now...[ nice nice lady at busch housing office :)] anyways so yea not really excited about going back i've had an ok time being home this break..i dont mind at all ;) ..... um the parties not really into i mean theres 1. IOTA juicy campus 2. APHIA the recession 3. MZ 80s vs 90s and then eventually 4.the MZ caberet ... and so forth WE IN A RECESSSION PPL!!!!! and i dont care much for the parties anymore that snuff got old oh well... hopefully good professors this semester and good grades..good hours for work and personal growth.... did i mention eating that food again yuck!!! altho i really been wanting some hong kong [aww marc and me and chinese and the stripper pole lol] - we gotta do that soon marc!!! anyway off topic i do miss my family and i mean my close friends they take up alot of my time and of course they all live in north jersey or far... its cool i shall see them everyday again soon enough.

FIRST VICTIMS ON MY LIST: 1.judy 2.amber 3.bestie[ricky] 4. my lil brothers in 1207 :)5. the silvers gang [chinese + stripper pole] 6.my angii <3 7. my trip to quad 3 to see my brothers <3 them [wood + moses = happiness]8.my rockoff jawns lol

ok so thats encompassing a large list but some of those ppl are my favorites!!!!

heart broken

" u only have three great loves in your life"

and i've already had two.... lost them both found them again and yet can only keep one...
the most important.... yes! [i hope so] but the second will always have a place in my heart.. .for deep personal life-long reasons. most ppl kno my first love.... lets call him mr. smith lol he gets on my nerves makes me angry comes with alot of uh lets just say its mr. smith + ______ but yea so 3 and some years making it thru some how.... november 4, 2005.....long time anyway yea we dealing with our issues.... hopefully it will work.. i do love that man of mine <3

but this post is about my second <3 .... he is a pain in my ass.. he eats all my candy. likes being a smart ass. watches anime [loser!] JUST RECENTLY agreed to pass over my favorite button down of his [he doesnt even wear it!] lets just say we've made it through alot of things. first things first.....PRIVACY!!!!!!! Mr. 2 will remain nameless [lol ha i should add 7 to that] anyway we been Through Fires bad things bad bad things good things great things....we have great memories [including breakin the tv] lol ima spare the details they not gonna mean as much to u lol [good times] hopefully there will many more to come...friend memories that is... point of the blog!!!! because my partner in crime is "in a relationship" <3 i knew before the public did but it still hurt a little...it stung.... we still close [mending our friendship] not as close as before :/ but working on it..... there are moments when i slip and think about things i shouldnt.. memories we should have had and didnt....possibilities...ideas ---- but thats all they are.... ideas... i love this man..i never told him... wasnt necessary...definitely wouldnt help now lol.. but i did... i do... <3

"wat are we gonna do tonight brain?"
"the same thing we do every night pinky: try to take over the world"

awwww :(


maybe i only have 2 not 3... maybe the person that made that quote was wrong... 2 great loves.. maybe the third is meant to be YOURSELF... because those 2 definitely taught me things about myself... so i thank u

bored..

sittin alone...
ate food...
text some ppl..
and now im watchin The Family Stone again for the hundredth time!!

mis abuelos casa...

so i was being a bum today and didnt do anything important. i woke up. i ate. took a shower. watched tv. [the basis of my life when im home: BORING!!] lol

• side note: im watchin Cry Baby the movie with Johnny Depp: old skool bad bad acting but i love it!! "its just a thunderstorm. heat lighting. its sexy!" lmao

so anyway back to the topic. i went to my grandparents house because i was lonely and i knew that there would be something happening at my grandmas house so i went. [took lik 2 minutes.. they live on the next block lol] i get there. yay grandpa! yay reina and nina! [the dogs] grandma? abuela? yea she was there. they had just got in and so was my aunt.... :/ "they" were cooking. now if u knew my aunt u would understand why i cant stand her. along wit the dumb idea to lock her hair [like we not freakin hispanic] anyway.... so she starts talkin some nonsense pressing buttons on my phone tryin to text someone [retard] i dunno i blocked out most of wat she says. something about i need new glasses and asking if my contacts were in color as if that was important and something that she needed to know. so we sit down to dinner [at lik 2 or 3 pm] dinners early at my grandparents house... talkin about how "6 pounds" must be smokin. so of course i had to dash her dreams of her thinkin she knows anything AND i splashed the entire movie muah ha ha. gave away the whole movie lol. i tired to ignore all further eye contact dinner table sharing air space all that i went and layed on the couch and watched the news with my abuelo [side note im hungry again] anyway so yea i went to see my grandparents and was RUDELY interrupted by my fathers sister. now im home left my abuelas at six. my moms at my stepdads. my hungry and lonely. sucky sucky

• i want chinese food
• i want kfc
• i'd like to go see brad pitts movie
• i want to see my RU fam <3
• its tuesday...wat happens on tuesdays
• did i mention i want fries
• its kinda cold in my house
• i wish i had somewhere to go
• but mainly im hungry
• cry baby : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GlFKd9l0qDA

the FEW the LOUD oh yea....the FAMILY

so i woke up this mornin [9am]. restarted my computer. blasted some music [to wake up fully]. and i feel a sudden desire to talk about my family. now if ur close to me u know how my relationship is with my family but i feel a changing in the winds...slow [definitely slow] but still a change...thats all i can hope for. there is not much of us.. just me my mom + one lol [sorry john--technically ur not blood but just the same to me] and my sister and occasionally u will hear me talk about my grandparents. thats it! well not really. im puerto rican and black so i have a large extended family but they not important. i dont even like most of them [not jokin]. BUT I DIGRESS......

Valerie ____ Morales: well as u can imagine since the last name gives it away... shes my madre. [yes i resemble her but i look lik my father more...diff story] i can say we are completely different people and yet very similar [i did this laugh she always does (perfectly!) the other day] i find myself talking like her [thought: mom would say "its speaking like her NOT talking"..all the little things count] or saying something she said to me to someone else...its odd. we dont always have the same opinion or the same taste but something keeps us together [oh yea it might be the whole thing that we have the same blood lol] we've had our moments and im 100% sure we will keep having them but i feel that i fall in love with my mother a little more each day. maybe it happens when i come home from school [collegio] and go back to sittin on the carpet in front of the bathroom "watch ur hands" while she wraps her hair [by habit..its wierd i dont know y i do it but i do]. or that no matter what im doing [she did it while i was washing dishes] she finds a way to press the buttons on my phone to mimic my texting lol or perhaps its the annoyin (mean) things [that i cant stand!] that she does that keep me hating her long enough to know shes doing it for my own good and i need to grow up and stop being a coldblooded brat lol TAKE THE INITIATIVE... do something with your life... maybe you should fall in love with ur mother again too... but ehh yea thats my mom

WARNING: NEVER AGAIN WILL I BE SOFT AGAIN.... I DONT DO THE EMOTIONAL CRAP

_____Lavette___->_: u dont need to kno any of her names except that one cuz thats the only one im gonna call her lol. well mi hermana is the only sibling i have we are 8 yrs apart and "shes the pretty one" [Love Actually]... get wit the movie or GET OUT. i joke i joke i kid i kid. [NOT] anyways... yea shes my sister shes old [do the math ppl] well shes not old per se ok ok back on the subject. lavette is an extraordinary being. shes smart funny pretty [did i mention smart?] ehhh but yea shes all those things (cant cook worth a damn.. an occasional oodles of noodles will do...perhaps a turkey burger lol) anyways yes shes all these things does all these things reads more books and watches more movies than me YES! i know thats crazy huh!! but she does. we have also had our moments..they dont last long.. "cuz ur right back to doing the next pain in the ass thing" [The Notebook] shes my sister wat can i say "theres no such thing as a free lunch" lol ... yummm food! (franii realizes shes hungry..i want Chinese ugh!) anyway back on topic.. so i love my sister yada yada she will always be there for me.. we learn new things everyday...

me: theres no toilet brush to clean it

her: just put some comet in it and flush it [LAUGHTER]

me: cuz thats surely gonna get it clean.. we've been cleaning toilets wrong for SO many years lmao...

Thats my moms +1 lol...hes been in the game for um i think mom said 12 years..yea cuz i was 8 and im gonna be 20 [yay im gonna be 20!] lol sorry... anyways yea hes not my real dad but he fulfilled the requirements just fine... gave me money when i was poor fed me when i was hungry [which was always] ..gave my mom money for christmas presents so she could buy it..lol... made me laugh thru out the years [hes a big kid] made me annoyed thru out the years [hes a big kid] but he treated me and lavette like his own "he treated us real nice... real real nice" lol [BTW: if u didnt notice we are movie quotes type of ppl hence the movie quotes lol] and he made my mom happy... he made her laugh (which is all u need..PLUS 1. a job 2. a car 3. a life 4. a house.... oh wait sorry thats my list lol) Yea i like him hes done a real fine job staying around. real fine!

AND SO THATS MY FAMILY... WE'RE NOT PERFECT BUT WE FIT.

hmm

and then it was nuevo...

Beginners Luck....

Soooooo....
Interesting idea huh...
i wonder if this will help me to escape the outside world...
i think perhaps it will pero we shall see...
[oh yea this bloggie thing will probably be in spanglish]
muah ha ha [no i did not steal that from u brain...get over it!!]
Gracias...
i really want some potatoe wedges from KFC [yum-o]
anyways... its late just trying this thingy out besos...
im sure i'll have lots of things to say soon enough...
like wtf is my xmas present but U got a new tattoo! .... [exactly!!]
P.S. i wanted to add a picture BUT my computers being dumb n not workin...
"Good Night Irene" -- Mi Abuela