"whats wrong wit ya foot???"

Well I haven't blogged for a while so I though I would post today. I haven't really been doing anything. JUST BEING CRIPPLED. AND ALONE. AND BUSY. And rethinking my life. I kind of think this is the turning pointing in my life. Time for me to start making my own decisions or act responsible.

My life has slowly been decaying. I feel like I'm dead. Like I'm just a body no soul no heart no nothing. And the weather makes me feel like mother earth knows how I feel. Sunny one day and cloudy the next.

People have been annoying me more then ever. Even my friends are annoying me. The best moment I had in a while was dinner Friday with my girls colleen and jess. Colleen came to visit us and then I got bodied [laugh out loud and shake your head]. That’s also the same day I became crippled. That’s why my ass don’t drink anymore. I'd rather sleep then hang out but then I miss the fact that I don’t hang out and I miss the pictures and the laughs --- I miss my friends. I miss the old me. The normal me.

Lovesong says I'm mean. I say I'm broken. Not intentionally I don’t think anyone broke me intentionally and I don’t think I broke myself nevertheless I'm broken. Like a television that has no signal that just is that blurry screen that makes that awful sound shchchshhchchchchshc.

SORRY TO INTERRUPT THIS PAID PROGRAMMING!!!!!!!!

IOTA PHI THETA FRATERNITY INCORPORATED IS HAVING THEIR SPR 09 PROBATE AT LUCY STONE 7:30 PM THIS SUNDAY APRIL 5TH. BE THERE. SHOUT OUTS TO ALPHA PSI AND MY LOVES THAT BOUT TO DO THEY THING.

NOW BACK TO YOUR PROGRAM…..

My highlights recently:

Colleen visiting
Getting my new glasses
Seeing California
Talking to El Jefe at trabajo
Seeing my wife BBJ all the time
Deciding to go home this weekend
Seeing my SITO and his neos... I love them [shouts to KAPSI]
Getting bodied w/ coll and jess
"WHERE'S WALDO" -- STATE THEATRE AT 7:30 APRIL 2ND --thank god its almost over!!!!
The warm sunny spring day on March 31st
Wearing sweatpants
Seeing my cousin Kenny
Talking to mi loquita --amber
Knowing that Abril is alive and well
Knowing that summer is coming :) and yet dreading the end of the year and living in Camden :(

My sad moments:

Homework
Always being tired
My stupid phone
Never going out with my friends
Not talking to my butta
Reading for class not for fun
My "Black Lit 1930s - Present" class
Being poor
BEING CRIPPLED
Being away from my mom
Lying to people
Trusting certain people
Realizing that I have to start working out and speaking that G-Y-M word