IM BACK

So i've been gone for a very long time. But im back now and im pretty sure i'll be having stuff to say. My life is a big fat mess right now. And im slowly putting it all back together. It just has to start flowing... any day now... and it will start. And when it does, its gonna be great.

risen from the dead

I STILL LIVE.

long time no write....

so i havent posted a blog in a while and it feels kind of strange to be writing again. maybe i havent posted one because i have no life. maybe because my life is over maybe because i just dont care. YO NO SE. lik i said havent really been doing anything besides class and working if im not at class and its before 11pm im usually at work. after 11pm im in my room.

so sophomore year is almost over CAN U BELIEVE IT i'll be a junior next yr. a junior in college. crazy aint it. and finals are comin up gotta get on that grind. i only got 2 meal swipes left gonna starve. i been hustling hard. got bills to pay and things to buy to survive.

i miss being home in my own house but i dont miss all the nonsense that camden brings. i miss my britt britt (newest edition to the sisterhood of DELTA SIGMA THETA SORORITY INC.) so proud of her and my other love Erwin AWWW. my latin lover has moved away with her husband and child to nowheresville and i will miss her terribly.

i gotta get a job (correction...JOBS) while im home this break i cant be in that house all day for 3 and a half months i might go crazy. ima miss my friends gotta make sure i come up to new brunswick to see my friends AT LEAST twice a month otherwise I KNOW i will go crazy.

still no love life haha wat a joke. i been downplayin that too. aint even off that shit. i do miss a few ppl. i do wish that some things would have worked however it was Gods will that they didnt. so i deal with it everyday.

LIFE IS A BOX OF CHOCOLATES...U NEVER KNOW WAT U GONNA GET

and with that i leave u for now, love mucho amor y besos franii

"this has nothing to do with u" [well wat the hell u callin me for]

So I haven't blogged in a while and mainly because I had nothing to talk. Nothing has been going on really. Work class homework. Nothing much. CUZ I HAVE NO LIFE. I went to the blue and white cabaret on Saturday night. like my first outing in a minute. Oh well I haven't missed anything. It was fun I guess. the pictures are up on facebook I HAD ON A DRESS AND HEELS SON. Lol but my real reason for blogging has to do with the quality of cheating being demolished by the newer generations.

I was recently informed of a form of "cheating" that one of my friends was doing. And I say "cheating" in quotation marks because these younglings do it all wrong. All this Pleasure P --- "Boyfriend # 2" nonsense. YOU NOT SUPPOSE TO LET PPL KNOW U DOIN WRONG. U should not be avoiding 20 calls and 50 text messages. Answer them FOOL. If u answer and u say where u are there will be no problems. U have to mix truth with lies boo. If all u say is lies you WILL get caught in a lie or worse-- caught in the act. I miss the days where people knew how to run game and not get caught. Where people knew how to cheat with 2 or 3 people and have no problems. I miss those days. Now these young people walking around acting like they on the show CHEATERS. Lol too much. Questions that need to be asked are:

1. Are yall really together

2. Is there a reason u giving him to cheat

3. Why don’t you trust him

4. Why don’t he want to be around your ass (lmao)

5.Why is it necessary to involve 5 of your friends

6. Why is it necessary to blame the girl -- she aint got shit to do with it UNLESS she …. NAH NAH she still aint got shit to do wit it

People are just so funny nowadays. Speaking of funny people. Isnt it a mess when someone you use to talk to who is an asshole tries to introduce you to one of his friends LIK COME ON lets be real here. Why would you do that. If I say "that’s fucked up" why would you be like "What? what? what did I do? why is it fucked up?" FREAKIN RETARD.

Andddd those boys that say reckless things and then try to act like it was nothing. Like they were "jk jk" boy please you was not playing when you said that. Its ok though I mean we all say reckless things sometimes but NO. lol

And I was hella mad yesterday. How you gonna send a text message at 1045 about a meeting at 11 when u half way across the world. IT WAS THE WEEKEND!! To get anywhere takes 45 minutes!!! There was no way I was gonna make it and I REALLY wanted to go.

• AND BEING POOR SUCKS.

• AND COLLEGE SUCKS.

• AND LIFE IS BLAH.

• Oh I cooked yesterday…arroz con gandules and bbq chicken … I only got 14 meal swipes left :(

• ITS SO NICE OUT BUT ITS LIKE 38 DEGREES…BOOOOOOOOOOO

• AND PEOPLE HATE ME….WAIT LOL THAT’S NOT A PROBLEM HEHE

• THE YOUNG BOUL I WANT KEEPS PLAYIN ME…. Not cool !!

• PEOPLE BEING MAD SHADY OUT THIS BITCH I cant stand Rutgers whoooo child.

• I'm hungry n I got to go to work after this class n before next class…

• YOUNG GIRLS AND DEATH STARES ARE HELLLA FUNNY

bored in class....

----Sitting in a room -----

Sitting in a room

Red sweater in a room full of

…… drab colors

Washed out and quiet

silent

Contemplating about dreams

Left unrealized

Lies

Never brought to light

PAUSE

The boy in the room that never speaks

Just spoke

And through his mouth came the words

Words one has yet to hear in this life time

Words that can make someone sell their soul

"This poem makes me think of…"

RESUME

You lost in thought

Thinking about

Life that has gone wrong

Kisses gone Uncherished

Hugs gone from memory

And the touch

His touch

A touch

Sitting in a room

blahhhhhh

today is april the 6th its a monday and it sucks. this weekend was GAT so mad it went badly. and my knee is still fucking hurting. yesterday was ok i was wit my ppls and femstar and jorge are now free yayy!!! spr 09 Alpha Psi. and shout out to dizzy's neos. its rainy today again wth is wit the nice day rain day nice day rain day weather. please mother earth STOP. we all gonna die. im so tired i was bullshittin last night and then doing my paper and talkin with my boys needless to say i only got 3 hrs of sleep and i have 3 classes today. i called outta work tho i just cant do that too i need to lay down i havent eaten anything either. im really bout to fall out. i need to go to my mailbox to get some packages but that involves walking being in the rain and JUST NO not today im so through and dimps phone is broken so i havent spoken to him my hair is straight and tthe rain is fuckin it up. theres a bumb on my wrist that reallly itches so i beeen scratchin and now my wrist is red. this classroom is hot. yo the probate last night was lik 98 degrees in that bitch. i really want some korean food today. the cabaret is this weekend. i get paid friday but im going to help jaynae pick up things for the baby shower and then we gonna get out nails done. thank god cuz i need a refill i been fuckin wit them and liftin up the acrylic maybe my toes. lets see how expense this gets. and virginia tech next weekend for the BIG EVENT long ass trip thank god i'll have my wife BBJ cuz i would kill myself otherwise ANYWAYS... yea so that my gats ass day hopefully tomorrow will be better my day starts at 9 tomorrow.. interesting im talkin bout tomorrow i aint even finish today yet lol

ughhh

did i mention i hate doing work in the library blahhh

"whats wrong wit ya foot???"

Well I haven't blogged for a while so I though I would post today. I haven't really been doing anything. JUST BEING CRIPPLED. AND ALONE. AND BUSY. And rethinking my life. I kind of think this is the turning pointing in my life. Time for me to start making my own decisions or act responsible.

My life has slowly been decaying. I feel like I'm dead. Like I'm just a body no soul no heart no nothing. And the weather makes me feel like mother earth knows how I feel. Sunny one day and cloudy the next.

People have been annoying me more then ever. Even my friends are annoying me. The best moment I had in a while was dinner Friday with my girls colleen and jess. Colleen came to visit us and then I got bodied [laugh out loud and shake your head]. That’s also the same day I became crippled. That’s why my ass don’t drink anymore. I'd rather sleep then hang out but then I miss the fact that I don’t hang out and I miss the pictures and the laughs --- I miss my friends. I miss the old me. The normal me.

Lovesong says I'm mean. I say I'm broken. Not intentionally I don’t think anyone broke me intentionally and I don’t think I broke myself nevertheless I'm broken. Like a television that has no signal that just is that blurry screen that makes that awful sound shchchshhchchchchshc.

SORRY TO INTERRUPT THIS PAID PROGRAMMING!!!!!!!!

IOTA PHI THETA FRATERNITY INCORPORATED IS HAVING THEIR SPR 09 PROBATE AT LUCY STONE 7:30 PM THIS SUNDAY APRIL 5TH. BE THERE. SHOUT OUTS TO ALPHA PSI AND MY LOVES THAT BOUT TO DO THEY THING.

NOW BACK TO YOUR PROGRAM…..

My highlights recently:

Colleen visiting
Getting my new glasses
Seeing California
Talking to El Jefe at trabajo
Seeing my wife BBJ all the time
Deciding to go home this weekend
Seeing my SITO and his neos... I love them [shouts to KAPSI]
Getting bodied w/ coll and jess
"WHERE'S WALDO" -- STATE THEATRE AT 7:30 APRIL 2ND --thank god its almost over!!!!
The warm sunny spring day on March 31st
Wearing sweatpants
Seeing my cousin Kenny
Talking to mi loquita --amber
Knowing that Abril is alive and well
Knowing that summer is coming :) and yet dreading the end of the year and living in Camden :(

My sad moments:

Homework
Always being tired
My stupid phone
Never going out with my friends
Not talking to my butta
Reading for class not for fun
My "Black Lit 1930s - Present" class
Being poor
BEING CRIPPLED
Being away from my mom
Lying to people
Trusting certain people
Realizing that I have to start working out and speaking that G-Y-M word